When I was a small girl, I was the tiniest among my siblings. I weigh about 3.15 kg when I was first born. I was treated very carefully and gently as I was so small and fragile. As a little baby sister I always gets the attention by everyone and I enjoyed that very much. I love talking so much and I stutter a lot because I was too anxious to speak. Yes I was so talkative back in those days, maybe now too. I was innocent back then. I was clueless and I believe almost everything my sisters and brother told me. Yes that sound stupid aite? I was but you can't blame me I was small. I remember when all of us drive around town and at the time we reached Taman Polo(it's a park) there were chinese cemetery surrounded the park. I wasn't scared but my sister told me if you look at those cemeteries you are sinned and you 'murtad' sometime(boleh pulak murtad sometimes kan?haha). At that she was standard 2 I guess. And so I became so afraid that everytime abah passed by Taman Polo I would be so nervous and close my eyes tightly and read Al-Fatihah. I never told abah that I was scared but that's what I did. As I grow, I wonder to myself, if looking at those cemeteries is a sin then how about dad? He can't close his eyes driving. Then I found out she got that one by her friend which of course a lie. I have always been so amazed with everything that Nana does. It was so inspiring. It's like she's so great because she knows everything. Things that I never knew(padahal -_-'). There's this time she told me something like this 'Biela nak tau tak, orang miskin kan,makan nasi sebutir sehari. kesian kan?' and Iwas like 'yeke? Kesiannya.' Obviously she made that up and I was innocent as ever believed her. Bila dah besar these things made us laugh sampai menangis. As I started school, I was so close to nana as she was always with me. She always asked me stupid question like 'Biela, ikan paus dalam english apa?' and I'm like 'I don't know. apa dia?' 'tak tahu ke? Sewel lahh!' and she laughs like a lunatic. As usual, I was blur giving her a straight face 'nana, biela tak faham'. 'Biela, dalam english is sea whale. Sewel tu gila' and she laughs again. Seriously at that time I was blur and my reply was Ohh! and give it some 'haha'. Itulah my sister Nana. This is my childhood stories with Nana. I have no idea why I blog about this but I feel like it. Okay this is an awkward ending.
I like songs with deep meanings :)
We're only taking turns
Holding this world
It's how it's always been
When you're older you will understand
Hello everybody! Don't say anything. I know it's been a while that I'm gone, away from this cyber life (statement paling pentipu di dunia. hehe) *sorry honeyh. Yeah well. I have something to shout here. IT’S MY 500 DAYS OF SUMMER WITH SAPIK KHAIRIL! OKAY OKAY IT'S SYAFIQ KHAIRIL! WHOOO! Who cares, really? Never mind. I know I’m lame just keep your thoughts to yourselves okay? If you like then it's good and if you don't it's fine. I'm okay with it. But you know, somehow I get what you mean, who count days for their relationship these days? People are getting busy with their lives but I did the counting. And hard to say I’m proud of it! Heh! You see I’m not great dealing with numbers. You know this juggle2 playing with numbers here I’m not really good at it. Not that bad Cuma lembab sikit je lah. Slow slow tau? Okay ignore that, anyways I did the counting for like 5 times to get the date and month right and God knows how hard it was* lembab kan, finally today was our 500 days together! Isn’t that awesome? I’ve been counting since 4 weeks ago which was last month! Semangated gila! I don’t know why it’s just that I love doing all this small2 little things. Later on when you’re 30 or 40 you won’t get to do all this. You don’t have the time to count days except for anniversaries. If that one Syafiq Khairil Lupa, ‘SOMEBODY’S GONNA GET HURT REAL BAD’. Thanks Russell. Heh!
About this Syafiq Khairil guy, I bet you known him or probably heard about him or maybe met him but let me tell you one thing, I never thought that I would end up with him. Really. I’m serious. The first time I thought he was cool (if only he reads this, he will -_-‘), funny but impossible for me to be with. I mean like come on, out of any girls in the world he wouldn’t pick me. I live in a small town in Ipoh. I’m not famous. I’m lame. Not cool. I’m not pretty. I talk a lot. Blur. So it’s just impossible for us to be together and even worse for him to even like me! To me at that time that would only be dreams that will be gone with the wind. Hehe. This is facts okay? I’m talking facts here people! Okay so it was like that. We have mutual friends. We keep in touch through social network. How we met and get to know each other let that one be a secret. But that’s how it goes. We got to know each other better and I’m like ‘Hey, he’s not that bad after all’. He’s humble down to earth kinda guy, understanding, respects the elderly, funny, he’s fun to be with and the best part is that he’s a good listener! Although at times we may not be at the same track you know when he likes different things and I hate those things that he likes. Sometimes it’s like that. For example, I gave him a song for him to listen to and his comment was ‘lagu apa ni? Macam lagu tidur je’. Another thing is when he recommend a song when sometimes the lagu is lagu yang mendayu2 lemahnya. Memang lemah la jantung ni nak dengar. I’m sorry this is not poyo or apa, but I don’t know why when I hear to sofaz kea pa ke meremang bulu roma seluruh badan. I’m sorry but I just can’t listen to songs like that! Goosebumps! I’m not lying! Lagu melayu okay je, but just don't give me lagu yang menderita2 and too jiwang sangat. I listened to Anuar Zain, M Nasir, Siti Nurhaliza, Ramli Sarip, Nora, and more semua okay je but not sofaz or sixth sense. you maybe like them but I don't. Sorry. heh! YEAH but that’s what people say OPPOSITE ATTRACTS! What he likes is what he likes kan? Still never love him less! :)
Okay I talked a lot of crap up there. It’s just me I like to go out of track. Terpesong daripada topic utama. Whatever. Okay now lets get back to my thank you speech! Hear me out ye Syafiq Khairil. Hehe. First and foremost, it has been 500 days of summer and I could not ask for more better days because all you ever gave me was always the best thing that I could have ever asked for.
You fed me with all the love, spirit, courage, inspiration and be the best guidance that leads me to this long journey of mine. Without you, I guess I would still be cold by now. Thanks for soften me up a bit. You know stuff like correct me when I’m wrong, when I'm too harsh or anything, just thank you okay? I want you to keep on doing that. This 500 days has been the best the most superb, awesomEST(don't google this) and wonderfulEST(and this too) days of my life and I’m hoping for more hundreds and thousands of days to come. And I’ll make sure that I fill those days with laughter, tears, happiness and joy. InsyaAllah. two big words for you, THANK YOU!
HAPPY 500 DAYS OF SUMMER SYAFIQ KHAIRIL AFFANDI :)
P/S I LOVE YOU
Oh yeah why is it summer? Sebab that cerita 500 days of summer, I like that movie. Secondly its because Malaysia kan summer all day long, but you know we have some rainy days as well. Okay bye :D
I love you Syafiq Khairil :)
This kid called me 'kaki apam' meaning to say that my leg is gemuk and tembam. He kept on massaging my leg and calls it kaki apam. This made me laugh the whole night. You're so cute Adam! Achik Biela loves you :D
This is my face covered in freckles with the occasional spot and some veins.
This is my body. Covered in skin and not all of it you can see. This is my face and I've got a thousand opinions. Half the time I'm trying to explain.
And this is my body and no matter how you try and disable it. Yes I'll still be here
And, this, is my mind and although you try to infringe, you cannot confine
And, this, is my brain. And even if you try and hold me back, there's nothing that you can gain
And this is my body and no matter how you try and disable it. Yes I'll still be here
And, this, is my mind and although you try to infringe, you cannot confine
And, this, is my brain. And even if you try and hold me back, there's nothing that you can gain
Now what am I to do,
when I feel so much love for you,
I wish I could be stronger,
But I get scared that my love will not do.
Now I do not want to be that girl
that cries at every turn
But I can't ignore the hurt,
that makes me burn.
So please do be patient with me,
I know I can have a bit of jealousy,
But I promise you, I'll make it up to you in return.
So baby, baby, would you read a poem I picked for you?
This is for the ladies who always feel insecure. haha
Really had a good 'alone laugh' today :D
Sorry tak sempat nak tangkap gambar guna camera -_-'
This picture will do. Heh! :P
Okay for those who have watched this movie before, for sure you will know the plot of the story. The movie The rainmaker was starred by of course my charming Matt Damon. He was so young in the movie. It was during the 1997 I suppose. I adore him so much because he is a smart ass. Hot and smart. Two in one people! Two in one! Why can't I be hot and smart at the same time? Haiihh. Anyway, the writer itself wrote many novels. One of them them is The Innocent and The Summons I guess. I bet those books are just awesome as The Rainmaker. I like the movie not just because of Matt Damon but it's because I was inspired by the character itself, Rudy Baylor. A fresh graduate who is working on a case against a giant insurance company which could have save a young man's life. You want to know more you have got to read it or just watch the movie. God knows I've been looking for this book for months still haven't found any luck. But indeed, I got this book from my best friend Nadiah. Thank you so much girlfriend for the book! I can't describe how happy I was! Rasa nak kasi kiss and tampar muka kau! :P Thank you so muchh! Happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy! :D
Kalau saya kata muka artis lelaki korea yang macam dalam Super junior tu macam perempuan agaknya orang marah tak? Sebab for me mereka termasuk dalam golongan lelaki2 metro. Don't you think? hurrmm. Ini personal opinion ye.
Hi freaks! So today's post I'm just going to go straight forward. No more playing hiding in the bush. Why? Because today I think I'm quite serious with my work today. Okay whatever. Back to what I was about to say, this morning I log in to my facebook account as usual and saw this stranger which I did not know who and why I approved him, posted his status something like this 'Duit dan cinta? Duit itu xpenting. Cinta itu adalah segala-galanya. Cukuplah sekadar cinta yang akan membahagiakan kita sayang.' (this stranger is a guy by the way). He's an ass if he thinks that money can come from the sky. Before I blocked this guy I did a little research or I can say stalking I guess. (I don't stalk unless 'that person' annoys me and if they were my love ones, heee). Don't ask how I stalk and know that he is jobless just go down and finish reading. Okay maybe not little, a lot. All his status was giving me goosebumps, geli. get it? Too much love and affection. So I found out that this guy is jobless living in Terengganu. He's 30(I don't know if this is real). He has 357 friends. He already had a girlfriend and she's 22. Working as a clerk at a law firm (sama la pulak kan? -_-'). The thing that pisses me off is that the fact the girl is out working and the guy is relaxing at home. Come on man! You're a guy! Badan besar tapi malas mengalahkan badak. Okay maybe I don't know his real situation but if he can online 24/7 and buzz unknown people like me all day long why can't you go find a job. And I don't think he's mentally retarded or physically unable to do things because looking at his default picture he was out hanging out with his girlfriend somewhere which is recent(siap kasi tarikh bila dating). Perfect body, enough fat and muscles, complete 2 arms and legs. At least an effort to find money is good enough. Some people are not always in a good luck, I get that. Okay malas nak elaborate panjang, you do all the thinking. What is happening to the world right now. The world is upside down. Nauzubillah.
P/S: It doesn't matter if this stranger is lying but yeah still a guy needs to fulfill his responsibilities as a man in this world. Okay I'm going to sushh now.
Who reads this crap anymore? These are my thoughts collection. It's junk. No it's not junk. It's just what I write. Sometimes its crap and sometimes it's full of creative imagination lame jokes and stories based on true events. Oh my dearest God. I am so freaking blur!
This statement I'm making here is a random statement. It's based on what I observed on current situation I am facing. I'm not telling you the whole story but just get the idea of what I'm about to say. A boy needs a girl. An employer needs employees. Restaurant needs customer. We need each other. Don't pretend you need no one. Never say stay out of my business because you will never know when your ship will sink and go down under. Believe in Karma because I do.
