I am seriously not feeling so good right now. Started to feel dizzy here and there. So many things happen at one time. Million things in mind. Registration is tomorrow, just finished packing. God knows what I packed. Chuck all my stuff in my luggage. I have no food with me. No time to beli. I will find time to buy it. After this heading off to see opah in Teluk Intan. Alhamdulillah she's getting better. Just discharged from the hospital. Really prayed the best for my dearest opah. Pray that she'll have back her appetite to eat. Not the other way round. Host family from Japan is coming tomorrow. I am nervous tired exhausted yet excited. I look like a mess. No time to groom myself now. Baju2 pun entah kemana. I am just going to go through this weekend slowly and hopefully everything will be fine. My schedule is so pack and I hate it! Bottom line is I have no life now. Unlucky me. But it's okay. I can can handle this. Just a few days more biela and your stress is gone. NOT QUITE GONE ACTUALLY. God bless me!
Lets just go somewhere, where no one can ever find me :)
I love it :)
Should I keep it long or short? Oh Jessica! You are so cantik! :D which one?
She's a hot mum :)
SEMUA PUN CANTIK! *btw the last picture is not jessica :P
I NEED HELP!
Yes alone again! This feeling is exactly the same feeling when I was in form 5. The only difference is that at that time I was busy having biology, chemistry, history books as my company but now I'm doing nothing. Alone. Fat. Bored. It has been three times I've been repeating the same novel, the same movies and so forth. I miss having my sisters and my brother here. Although sometimes they can get pretty annoying. Nana is away with her gazal team. Off to Shah Alam. Yush and Naim started their working and training today in KL! Good luck to them though! Leaving this sad boring fat annoying sister alone with a lot of food in the fridge!*sigh. like seriously, my mum bought a lot of food! I think she likes to see I grow fat. I already am mum! Thanks! Kit kat, sneakers,choccets, black forest chocolate bar, You just name it! Mummy I'm alone in the house! But that what makes me alive in this house! FOOD! YEAHH! Sometimes I sounded like a ungrateful child whining this and that, well that's because I got nothing to do! Few days back, I searched for my novel to read and I found one of my book during my olden days. My school days. I could not just stop laughing on how silly and stupid I was back then. Immature. drawing here and there. *that habit is still there by the way. How I hated school back then. How I wanna get out of it as soon as possible. It was just funny. Its not the friends was the problem. Neither was the teachers. But it felt like so stressful with so many rules and reputation to maintain. It was just awful! Dramas! Yeah, you tell me about it! Everyone wants attention at the same time. fighting for stupid things. How awful, horrible and fun it was, honestly I missed it! My friends which made me laugh until I crawl and cry, it was a BOOM BOOM BLAST! :) Miss you guys! I really do! Right now I was suppose to feel happy because it's December! YEEAAYY! It's December! I'm happy but not that jumpy happy whooaaww kinda feeling. I'm turning 19 really soon and I can feel I am getting older and older. I want to be young forever! But Obviously you can't. People say being old is beautiful. Is it? :P Well, we'll see about that when I'm 40 and above. I can't wait to turn 19 and discover how it feels like. Where's the excitement of turning 19? I waited so long for this! Maybe I waited so long the excitement is gone with the wind. NO! I's still there and I have to find it! Look for it! DECEMBER EXCITEMENT!*lame nya sigh! And yeah I think I am anti social. BECKAA! *SIGH
My dream is getting weird and weirder and weirderer! I want no more dreams! :(
7 Months being with you is a blast.
7 Months teaches me a lot about love.
7 Months also teaches me about trust.
7 Months is making us stronger.
7 Months had made me the happiest girl on earth.
7 Months teaches me to appreciate what I have.
7 Months teaches me two things that are really important for sure, patience and acceptance.
7 Months had made me wiser and believe in myself that I could do almost anything.
7 Months had also made me realised I am more than myself.
Within this 7 months Syafiq Khairil, I am so grateful that we are together.
Happy 7th Monthlyversary :)
P/S I Love You :)
You're much more worse than I thought. Grow up enjoy life. Learn to be grateful in life. Don't keep on blaming people surround you. It pisses me off.
I'm not fat! I'm just berisi! I don't wanna make this an issue or something. It's not a big deal at all. I don't think that im that fat! like FAT! i'm just berisi. Berisi is something good aite? I just wanna clarify it again that I like the way I am now. I am not fat but I am BERISI. thank you!:)
WOOWW! I have a blog! I forgot that I have a blog!
Okay what happen to me it doesn't matter. I'm fine and good :)
Since I haven't post anything since GOD KNOWS WHEN' I miss writing and expressing my thoughts here. I forgot how happy I was goofing around cracking jokes, telling funny stories which for me I think it's funny but I don't know about you. ! Geezz. Where's my sense of humour? Did I left it somewhere? Maybe because I left blogging for a very very very long time. So, yeah! I'm back! To begin with...
okayy..wait. I don't know where to start.
........................................................... *Ding!
Okay, let's begin with my life.
okay, since I haven't updated anything just yet, lets start with my campus life here in kuantan!
It's now already my third sem in Kuantan which means my final year doing my foundation studies. Crap! This semester I always found myself in misery, hollow, deep, pressured which sometimes I didn't even recognize myself anymore. The classes are fine. So does the schedule but the subjects. GOD!! It's poison! All my subjects needed 'my kinda slow brain' to memorise things. Everytime I studied I have to force my brain to work with me even my heart refused to do so. It's all about Law issues, global issues and also economics. Speaking of economics, I just did the test today. and alhamdulillah I think I can answered all the questions! Bravo biela :) I remembered the last time how I hated economics so much because I didn't know what this crap is all about. After doing some exercises and attending tutor FINALLY I can see the light.*haaaaaaaa ( sound effect). It wasnt that bad after all. :P bajet terer la kan biela! heee :D
Despite of all my not so fabulous life right now, I joined debate and kinda get serious into it. Seriously, Biela debate!! I can debate! haha! Still suck at being the prime minister though! :P anyways and anyhows since we have juniors joining the debate team, we attended DC (director's cup) debate competition in jengka. Basically its just between Kuantan and Jengka. I joined and debate debate debate debate with my partner mimi. We made a great team aite mimi? heee :D we got to the finals and won second place. Im really sorry to qayyum and everyone for breaking the record for not winning this tournament since kuantan never lost to jengka before. I don't know where it went wrong but it's okay experience teached everybody a lesson :)
with my fellow debate members :)
with my best friend Rabieka Aliya and my new adik, izyan :)
Interesting photos isnt it? :P perasan much!:P So much of the joy! Syafiq Khairil Affandi. Yes! He's the guy that I've been missing :( *DING! random..:P How did our relationship flows? We're doing fine, happy like any other loving couples. I let time takes us to whenever he wanna takes us. maybe we're a bit far away from each other right now but time will meet us together someday :) It has been 5 months now and I'm happy. No doubt about it as long as it stays right honey? heee :) syafiq khairil : rightt honey :).. HAHA :D
Many things to do and so I'll try to visit you twice a week my deary blog. I'm not sure when because I'm quite busy lately so I hope you understand. Yeah, I miss u you too. :) XOXO
hey monday! 10th may 2010!I love you so much!and the people who were with me on that day. Thank you sayang :) damn! wish i could turn back time! *sigh. who owns a time machine??
I dont know what i'm feeling right now. sorry everybody..:( i screwed up this time.
Holiday is holiday! What else i can say? Holiday means stay home,watch some awesome dvds, sleep, look after my brother, become a bibik and chillin out. I am currently learning how to cook. Cooking is equals to cool! COOKING=COOL! COOL IS GOOD!:) I've checked out some cool recipes from some web sites. It looks really easy and simple. I mean like if he could do it so can I! Basically, its all Italianos food! God! biela! Masakan melayu! Masakan melayu! gulai lemak ikan masin, sambal udang, asam laksa! You should learn that!! melayu not italiano! okay..okay..Biela, lepas ni blaja masakan melayu..but2! I've learn how to make ayam berempah with mum the other day! hah! theres one! haha:) The funny thing is, I've learn as in theory but not practically! hahaha! BIG L FOR BIELA! shame! shame! :P But, theory is important before practicing it right? hah! I always have a point! :) Just need time when no one even bother to call 'biela! biela!' because Biela needs full concentration people! hahah..masak pun nk kecoh!hahaha:D silly me! Sometimes I even dream cooking like Nigella and Jamie Oliver! They were so good! They make the food really easy to make and they cook as if they just campak the ingredients here and there! I want your talent Mr Jamie Oliver!! Aaahh this is me! berangan! :P someone said this to me 'kalau itu indah' and its true. Kalau kalau..I just like u Kalau! hahaha! you make my dreams flower flowery.:) okay STOP! I think I've gone way to far. Anyway, just wish me luck for my cooking experiment which I don't know when will I get my hands on the ingredients!! Just wish me luck!haha! tootles!:)
kau hadir bila tiba waktunya
tidak diundang tak jua di pinta
walau ku lari namun kau tetap datang jua
keranamu chinta tak mampu menahannya
aku terus mencuba untuk lari dari chenta
kerana perit terasa sengsara tanpa kata kerana dusta
chinta kau luhurkan hati ini membuat segalanya indah
walau sesekali menjengah tiba oh chinta
terasa bahagia
hanya menunggu saat dan tika
aku akan terus melangkah walau tak perlu owh chinta
aku yakin akan agungnya setianya ceritera yang tiada akhirnya
chinta abadi chinta
chinta padanya
chinta satu
chinta selamanya
Chinta by Monoloque :)
Things are flowing exactly as how I plan it to be. Library skills done! psychology done! Introduction to law not quite done! Overall, this week is a very stress+emo week! ggaaahh! im sorry if i ever said something that i shouldn't say or maybe acted the wrong way, singing like a lunatic, suddenly being grumpy that made you guys feel annoyed, sorry :P kura-kura trckp ruka-ruka..khairul trpnggl Kamarul..dlm hati Who the heck is Kamarul?hahaha! sorry azrin suka2 je tukar name org tuh.. No more emo2 people! anyways and any hows, things went the way i wanted. My family are all good and so does my life. keep it cool biela! keep it cool! Geezz I think its been a while I din write anything like this long. I dont have the time to update anything now. Still I find time to write. :) ookkaayy..now I dont know what to write. Haha! my god biela! ape nih? nk tulis ke xnk? gahh! running out of ideas!! okayla..i dont have much time so im just gonna go..ohh!! Before that! You are very well appreciated Syafiq Khairil;) xoxo
I screw MTC 038. Not enough time. Down. Depressed. Focus on Psychology biela!
He made me the happiest girl in this world :)
So dont go away,
say what you say,
but say that you'll stay,
forever and a day,
in the time of my life,
because I need more time,
yes I need more time just to make things right.
don't go away by oasis ;)
Premise 1 : test= stress!
Premise 2 : biela+ test= 2x stress!
conclusion : test is making biela stress! oh honey B!
Look at my title, all in one! hahaha;p basically im going to write what happen during my trip to perak and at home! Last week i went to perak, UTP in details for a library trip! My first impression about the trip YEAAAYY!! As soon as i reached there..naahh..no no..dont get me wrong. Its not about the trip. Its about the place we stayed. Its old, creepy and scary! wait2! let me finished about the library trip first. We went to UTP for the very first time i dont know about anyone else but this is my first time going to utp although dah sejuta kali lalu dpn utp..;p its a very very huge place i can say. The library is HUGE! If only i studied there i would be like so semangat nk belajar! hahaha;D overall its okay..meeting this one foreigner saying 'terima kasih', wow..im impressed! Its undeniable the first time we saw the library our jaw almost dropped! Almost! it didn't drop just yet. Hahaha! Overall, it was okay. this is the best part! About the place we're staying. like i said its old, creepy and scary. Imagine the house is an old house, a very old villa to be precise and the first time u walk in you saw a cat. Scary! i had a very bad feeling about the house and of course im always right. there is something wrong about the house! It has that 'thing' in the house. i dont want to say much bu then i did not sleep well the whole night. I listen to my mp4 and make sure that i stay in touch, physically contact with my friend becka. It was funny though! hhahaha! the next day upsi best like usual..visit library and the best part is PAU! the best pau i have ever taste in my whole life. bayangkan kpg sendiri kt tanjung malim xprnh rase??shame on me!shame on me!;p i'll make sure i'll see you again pau if i ever visit tanjung malim again!;) I was quite down during the first day because i cant meet my parents. Its not a big deal but its like you were so close but then you dont have the chance to meet them. But its okay! i already met them this week! and im happy..ngeee=D Speaking about sogo pulak, this seriously pissed me off. I was sleeping like a baby and when immediately u guys force us to go sogo, i mean like wth? turun dgn mamai2 pkai baju kurung. seriously i dont know how to describe myself anymore! im a messed that time! hahaha..i had fun though! with all the things i went through with the creepy house and wat not it was fun!;) cny balik ipoh yeaayy!!this is the day im looking for! it finally came! mmg bersinar2lah muke ni kan!hahaha;p smpai2 i met my dear abah of course and balik rumah jumpe the rest of my family and also cupak, naim's friend! At first i saw my bro, his hand were shaking and i got scared! apehal pulak tgn die shaking nih..and so i asked..whats wrong with ur hand? i got pranked!! BAD NAIM!! so sabar2..im glad by the way! he's doin fine! kaki die dah byk bergerak and he mandi for the very first time..shivering! tu lah tnjuk terror suh letak air sejuk byk2..hahaha;D i enjoyed watching raja lawak with you naim..;) naim..naim..sgt berdrama my bro ni..Drama king!;p moving on to sad confession by everyone at home, they said my butt is big!! and its proven when i went to buy my baju kurung siap! i like that baju kurung very much! and i try it on, the baju fits perfectly but the kain..TEETTTT! disappointment!;( nasib boleh tukar dgn size lain! org tu salah jahit i just know it! positive2!;p n now everyone teased me of having big butt! its a lie tau everyone!;p anyway i had fun in ipoh i ate 2 bungkus of nasi vanggey! satisfaction! enjoy laughing with my family..;) im so sorry to say this but my fingers said that he is tired to type anymore. so im goin to just back off. just wait for me to post another one! (what a lame ending post!) xoxo!
mum and dad xoxo ;)
It seems that I cant meet my parents this weekend. This is just sad! SAD! I really wanted to see my parents. This is just so frustrating! Abah..Mak..Nasi vanggey..So long dream!;( Its okay biela, at least u got to see Perak! yeaay!(fake) This is the reason why I hate to be excited on small little things! See what happened? When I got really excited over something there must be some little things that make my hopes and dreams fade away. oh man! chill biela chill..next week chinese new year you still get to meet your family. Positive biela! Positive! My god I keep on whining and whining! sorry! okay enough with my pathetic sad depressing story, moving on to something that I would love to share. Especially girls, or anyone lah. The topic of the day is marriage? YES,MARRIAGE! Girls love to discuss about this issue. I mean like when will u get married? with who? and so and so.. Its just dreams and hopes that they shared. Gosh! Its a long way to go. I've never thought of how my life would be when I am married with a husband and having probably 3 kids. God I feel old. Haha. Some would rather be married at the early age of 20 to 22. Thats too young for me but if its God's fate and what they wanted then I'm happy for those who wanted to get married early. I dont know. I just dont have the picture of getting a huge deal over this. I mean yes! I wanted to get married I do its just that I dont have this overall view because I feel that I have so many things to do and so many things need to be done. Calon? speaking of calon? wallahualam..haha;p Maybe one step at a time. I get pretty scared when these people actually had plan for their future( i mean marriage planning) because I dont plan anything yet. Ya Allah mestilah im still 18 kot..xmatang lagi..xmatang lagi..hahaha;p but what I do know is that I do not want to get married too early and i dont want to get married too late.sedang2..I want everything to be stable before rushing into a decision.Serious I feel like an adult! Mum if u ever read this post confirm mak kate biela miang! hahahaa;D at least u know what is your precious daughter is thinking .HAHAHAHA! funny! funny!woots!!;)
Q: Biela, who's the guy and the girl in ur blog?
A: laahh...u dont know??obviously me and my bf..hahaha..its gerard butler la my friend! hot kan? hahaha;D
Q: Lagu ape yg mcm sedih dalam blog kau ni biela?
A: Alamak..sedih ke? mane ade sedih! its Samson by Regina spektor, ade kt bwh dah tulis dah! I like it!!;)
Q: Apesal kau comel sgt ni biela?
A: haish! jgnla ckp cmtu..malu lah..;P
SOALAN LAST TADI SOALAN BONUS! TIPU JE!! I MADE UP THAT QUESTION;P HAHAHAHA!
STUPID ME!;P
A: laahh...u dont know??obviously me and my bf..hahaha..its gerard butler la my friend! hot kan? hahaha;D
Q: Lagu ape yg mcm sedih dalam blog kau ni biela?
A: Alamak..sedih ke? mane ade sedih! its Samson by Regina spektor, ade kt bwh dah tulis dah! I like it!!;)
Q: Apesal kau comel sgt ni biela?
A: haish! jgnla ckp cmtu..malu lah..;P
SOALAN LAST TADI SOALAN BONUS! TIPU JE!! I MADE UP THAT QUESTION;P HAHAHAHA!
STUPID ME!;P
This week has been a very clumsy week for me. This week I almost fell 4 times. Twice fell from my bed. The first time is when I woke up in the morning feeling all lazy, I did not woke up just yet, just try to stretch myself by berguling2 a bit to the left and to the right. Guling2 to the left and right I terover guling to the right and fell down and thanks to that I was fully awake! This usually happens so im not suprised. My fellow housemates dah xboleh nk ckp ape dah!haha. sorry! Its not that I meant to fall from my bed. Second time, yes its my fault..hehe.sorry dayah. I know u were so worried about me because I keep on playing a fool. We took out our tilam outside the other night to watch new moon and we left it there till the next day. So i kinda like to play around throwing myself at the tilam. Dayah was there laying on the bed, as usual I'm a fool I throw myself on the tilam from the side which I expected that i landed on the tilam. And yes I landed on the tilam but thats just for 2 seconds as my body was thrown back or bounce back (is a proper word to use) on the floor! And there you go biela! Nice one! It hurts and I got a padan muka speech and also scolding from dayah which she also laughed at me! I did not cry although it hurts so bad, but i laughed like mad! The third time is when i was outside my class i was rushing out because I just cant stand to be in that class even for a second. So as I was walking, I almost tripped myself! Luckily i grabbed someone's arm which I dont know who but she's a girl. Thank you for lending your arm girl!;) The fourth time was when I was in a bathroom, it was slippery!! Dont blame me, blame the floor! Bad floor!;P Luckily im still alive and did not injured any part of my bodies and bones! Im such a lucky girl!woots!!;)
Lets just say that i have no idea what to write! happy happy happy happy day everyone!;)
This week has been very stress for me with tonnes of assignments!! but yet yeay!!i finished it!! Wasn't im the smartest kid ever?hahaha;p somebody please congratulate me..hahaha..Dont you guys feel proud of me?hahaha..thank u!thank u! Okay this maybe unnecessary but i would to give some special thanks..heheh.. okay here it goes..
FIRSTLY, I WOULD LIKE TO THANK MY DEAR ACERINE FOR CONTRIBUTING YOUR BODY AND SACRIFICING YOUR ENERGY FOR ME. I KNOW I HAVE BEEN THE PAIN IN THE ASS BUT I PROMISED YOU THIS WILL ONLY HAPPEN WHEN I HAVE TONNES OF ASSIGNMENT. SORRY AGAIN MY LOVE, ACERINE! SECONDLY, I WOULD LIKE TO THANK MY PARTNER AND MY HOUSEMATES FOR BEING SO PATIENT WITH MY HORRIBLE BEHAVIOR DURING MY STRESSFUL TIMES. I MAYBE LAUGHED ALL OF THE SUDDEN AND I MAYBE SING LOUDLY AND WHINE TO MYSELF THAT MAY SCARE THE HELL OUT OF YOU GUYS. SORRY! THIRDLY OF COURSE MY PARENTS WHO HAVE BEEN SUCH A SUPPORTIVE ONES WHO ALWAYS CHEER FOR ME FROM THE BACK! THANK YOU! MUM WHO ALWAYS CARED N SAID 'JGN STRESS XBAIK' HAHAHA. THANK YOU SO MUCH! THAT MEANS A LOT MUM! THANKS! LOVE YOU GUYS TILL THE END!! GRAZI PEOPLE!GRAZI!;)
okay i think thats it for my stupid speech not to say stupid but not so stupid or i can say sincere speech.hehe. Well, thats it from me now! thank u very much and have a good day everyone!;)
FIRSTLY, I WOULD LIKE TO THANK MY DEAR ACERINE FOR CONTRIBUTING YOUR BODY AND SACRIFICING YOUR ENERGY FOR ME. I KNOW I HAVE BEEN THE PAIN IN THE ASS BUT I PROMISED YOU THIS WILL ONLY HAPPEN WHEN I HAVE TONNES OF ASSIGNMENT. SORRY AGAIN MY LOVE, ACERINE! SECONDLY, I WOULD LIKE TO THANK MY PARTNER AND MY HOUSEMATES FOR BEING SO PATIENT WITH MY HORRIBLE BEHAVIOR DURING MY STRESSFUL TIMES. I MAYBE LAUGHED ALL OF THE SUDDEN AND I MAYBE SING LOUDLY AND WHINE TO MYSELF THAT MAY SCARE THE HELL OUT OF YOU GUYS. SORRY! THIRDLY OF COURSE MY PARENTS WHO HAVE BEEN SUCH A SUPPORTIVE ONES WHO ALWAYS CHEER FOR ME FROM THE BACK! THANK YOU! MUM WHO ALWAYS CARED N SAID 'JGN STRESS XBAIK' HAHAHA. THANK YOU SO MUCH! THAT MEANS A LOT MUM! THANKS! LOVE YOU GUYS TILL THE END!! GRAZI PEOPLE!GRAZI!;)
okay i think thats it for my stupid speech not to say stupid but not so stupid or i can say sincere speech.hehe. Well, thats it from me now! thank u very much and have a good day everyone!;)
NURUL NABILA BT HASNI! ASK YOURSELF! WHY ARE U HERE? SO JGN NK MENGADE HOMESICK2! but i am..homesick sgt..mak..abah..i miss u guys!!;( I am in a middle of a mess but i still maintain to be calm and play cool..I was hit by a lot of assignments! this week is a disaster! tomorrow is my law test! My god!! Give me a break! but still i could laughed with my friends just to forget all the misery feelings i feel! Well thats what they always said laughter is the best medicine!;) I wanna go home! I wanna sleep on my bed! i wanna see everyone at home! but i cant! my work here is not done! biela! no pressure! no pressure! chill lah,i still have a lot more days to finish up my assignments..ye lah but then here i am! tulis blog! haaaa..xpe2!!relieve stress..breathe in..breathe out!fuuhh!! anyway, congratulations for those who scored band 4,5,6, 10 or whatever for muet..haha;p I LOVE EVERYBODY! spread the love!!;) p/s: this is what happen to me when i feel stress, hyper and restless! just dont bother!haha;D
I feel different today. Lately, I don't sleep very well. I tend to suddenly woke up at around 3 and cant sleep anymore. I feel so tensed. every morning i hoped that my day will start well and i always tell myself that im fine. But then no matter how happy I was still inside i feel different. I cried last night and still not capable to find out why. Do you know how it feels? It felt like u're asleep and suddenly u're awake and suddenly your heart beats faster. then tetibe teringat kt family and opah. weird!! Usually its nothing. I dont really bother. aaaa!! maybe homesick kot. Its just something is bugging and bothering me and i don't know what it is. This feelings came to me during late at night..petang2 okay je..ke im too like trpengaruh ngn all that creepy stories being told by my housemate? seriously I dont know! hopefully tonight i can sleep well! PLEAASSEE! I NEED SOME GOOD SLEEP!;(
It's new year everyone!!!!;) god that was fast right? Its like yesterday we were still in 2009 and the next day PUFF! 2010! Right...2010..hurmm.. To be honest, I didn't even realised that I am facing 2010 coz time flies so fast. At this point, i guess people were having fun celebrating new year's eve with their love ones. as for me, i celebrated it at home with my mcflurry and fries with my family watching dark knight! i know it sounds boring..coz i dont feel anything about new year!! but then somehow something just pop out saying that 2010 is going to be a good year for me! so i made a list..about the list..dont have to show..hahaha;p just hoping and praying that this year will be a good one not only me but to my family and friends! May joy and happiness be with us along the way!! cheers 2010!!;)
