Sitting here alone in the office makes me think of the future. Thinking of what my future will bring, what will I be in 5 years time. This time is no joke. I have another 3 more years to complete my studies and work. It's time for serious business. I want to show to everyone that I can do almost everything. I'm craving for confidence. I lost my confidence don't know where it went to. I can barely knew what I was talking. I want to be successful like so bad. I want to make my parents proud. I want to be the light that shines in the family. I want people to talk good things about me. My parents raised me so well to respect others and be true to myself on what I want in life. But in order to do that, I have to gather all my believes and it's time to fix myself. Something is not right and I realized that. I know what I had done, I haven't been so honest to myself. I have been so positive yes and I will stay that way. Being positive always helps me get through hard times. I'm not a robot or a toy that could be fix in a short period of time. This will take longer. Currently praying hard to seek for His guidance to help me fix what is not right and to get it right.