I am seriously not feeling so good right now. Started to feel dizzy here and there. So many things happen at one time. Million things in mind. Registration is tomorrow, just finished packing. God knows what I packed. Chuck all my stuff in my luggage. I have no food with me. No time to beli. I will find time to buy it. After this heading off to see opah in Teluk Intan. Alhamdulillah she's getting better. Just discharged from the hospital. Really prayed the best for my dearest opah. Pray that she'll have back her appetite to eat. Not the other way round. Host family from Japan is coming tomorrow. I am nervous tired exhausted yet excited. I look like a mess. No time to groom myself now. Baju2 pun entah kemana. I am just going to go through this weekend slowly and hopefully everything will be fine. My schedule is so pack and I hate it! Bottom line is I have no life now. Unlucky me. But it's okay. I can can handle this. Just a few days more biela and your stress is gone. NOT QUITE GONE ACTUALLY. God bless me!
Lets just go somewhere, where no one can ever find me :)

I love it :)
Should I keep it long or short? Oh Jessica! You are so cantik! :D which one?

She's a hot mum :)







SEMUA PUN CANTIK! *btw the last picture is not jessica :P
I NEED HELP!
Yes alone again! This feeling is exactly the same feeling when I was in form 5. The only difference is that at that time I was busy having biology, chemistry, history books as my company but now I'm doing nothing. Alone. Fat. Bored. It has been three times I've been repeating the same novel, the same movies and so forth. I miss having my sisters and my brother here. Although sometimes they can get pretty annoying. Nana is away with her gazal team. Off to Shah Alam. Yush and Naim started their working and training today in KL! Good luck to them though! Leaving this sad boring fat annoying sister alone with a lot of food in the fridge!*sigh. like seriously, my mum bought a lot of food! I think she likes to see I grow fat. I already am mum! Thanks! Kit kat, sneakers,choccets, black forest chocolate bar, You just name it! Mummy I'm alone in the house! But that what makes me alive in this house! FOOD! YEAHH! Sometimes I sounded like a ungrateful child whining this and that, well that's because I got nothing to do! Few days back, I searched for my novel to read and I found one of my book during my olden days. My school days. I could not just stop laughing on how silly and stupid I was back then. Immature. drawing here and there. *that habit is still there by the way. How I hated school back then. How I wanna get out of it as soon as possible. It was just funny. Its not the friends was the problem. Neither was the teachers. But it felt like so stressful with so many rules and reputation to maintain. It was just awful! Dramas! Yeah, you tell me about it! Everyone wants attention at the same time. fighting for stupid things. How awful, horrible and fun it was, honestly I missed it! My friends which made me laugh until I crawl and cry, it was a BOOM BOOM BLAST! :) Miss you guys! I really do! Right now I was suppose to feel happy because it's December! YEEAAYY! It's December! I'm happy but not that jumpy happy whooaaww kinda feeling. I'm turning 19 really soon and I can feel I am getting older and older. I want to be young forever! But Obviously you can't. People say being old is beautiful. Is it? :P Well, we'll see about that when I'm 40 and above. I can't wait to turn 19 and discover how it feels like. Where's the excitement of turning 19? I waited so long for this! Maybe I waited so long the excitement is gone with the wind. NO! I's still there and I have to find it! Look for it! DECEMBER EXCITEMENT!*lame nya sigh! And yeah I think I am anti social. BECKAA! *SIGH
My dream is getting weird and weirder and weirderer! I want no more dreams! :(
7 Months being with you is a blast.
7 Months teaches me a lot about love.
7 Months also teaches me about trust.
7 Months is making us stronger.
7 Months had made me the happiest girl on earth.
7 Months teaches me to appreciate what I have.
7 Months teaches me two things that are really important for sure, patience and acceptance.
7 Months had made me wiser and believe in myself that I could do almost anything.
7 Months had also made me realised I am more than myself.
Within this 7 months Syafiq Khairil, I am so grateful that we are together.
Happy 7th Monthlyversary :)
P/S I Love You :)
