You are reading my head

Yes alone again! This feeling is exactly the same feeling when I was in form 5. The only difference is that at that time I was busy having biology, chemistry, history books as my company but now I'm doing nothing. Alone. Fat. Bored. It has been three times I've been repeating the same novel, the same movies and so forth. I miss having my sisters and my brother here. Although sometimes they can get pretty annoying. Nana is away with her gazal team. Off to Shah Alam. Yush and Naim started their working and training today in KL! Good luck to them though! Leaving this sad boring fat annoying sister alone with a lot of food in the fridge!*sigh. like seriously, my mum bought a lot of food! I think she likes to see I grow fat. I already am mum! Thanks! Kit kat, sneakers,choccets, black forest chocolate bar, You just name it! Mummy I'm alone in the house! But that what makes me alive in this house! FOOD! YEAHH! Sometimes I sounded like a ungrateful child whining this and that, well that's because I got nothing to do! Few days back, I searched for my novel to read and I found one of my book during my olden days. My school days. I could not just stop laughing on how silly and stupid I was back then. Immature. drawing here and there. *that habit is still there by the way. How I hated school back then. How I wanna get out of it as soon as possible. It was just funny. Its not the friends was the problem. Neither was the teachers. But it felt like so stressful with so many rules and reputation to maintain. It was just awful! Dramas! Yeah, you tell me about it! Everyone wants attention at the same time. fighting for stupid things. How awful, horrible and fun it was, honestly I missed it! My friends which made me laugh until I crawl and cry, it was a BOOM BOOM BLAST! :) Miss you guys! I really do! Right now I was suppose to feel happy because it's December! YEEAAYY! It's December! I'm happy but not that jumpy happy whooaaww kinda feeling. I'm turning 19 really soon and I can feel I am getting older and older. I want to be young forever! But Obviously you can't. People say being old is beautiful. Is it? :P Well, we'll see about that when I'm 40 and above. I can't wait to turn 19 and discover how it feels like. Where's the excitement of turning 19? I waited so long for this! Maybe I waited so long the excitement is gone with the wind. NO! I's still there and I have to find it! Look for it! DECEMBER EXCITEMENT!*lame nya sigh! And yeah I think I am anti social. BECKAA! *SIGH

My dream is getting weird and weirder and weirderer! I want no more dreams! :(

You're much more worse than I thought. Grow up enjoy life. Learn to be grateful in life. Don't keep on blaming people surround you. It pisses me off.

I'm not fat! I'm just berisi! I don't wanna make this an issue or something. It's not a big deal at all. I don't think that im that fat! like FAT! i'm just berisi. Berisi is something good aite? I just wanna clarify it again that I like the way I am now. I am not fat but I am BERISI. thank you!:)

WOOWW! I have a blog! I forgot that I have a blog!