Yes alone again! This feeling is exactly the same feeling when I was in form 5. The only difference is that at that time I was busy having biology, chemistry, history books as my company but now I'm doing nothing. Alone. Fat. Bored. It has been three times I've been repeating the same novel, the same movies and so forth. I miss having my sisters and my brother here. Although sometimes they can get pretty annoying. Nana is away with her gazal team. Off to Shah Alam. Yush and Naim started their working and training today in KL! Good luck to them though! Leaving this sad boring fat annoying sister alone with a lot of food in the fridge!*sigh. like seriously, my mum bought a lot of food! I think she likes to see I grow fat. I already am mum! Thanks! Kit kat, sneakers,choccets, black forest chocolate bar, You just name it! Mummy I'm alone in the house! But that what makes me alive in this house! FOOD! YEAHH! Sometimes I sounded like a ungrateful child whining this and that, well that's because I got nothing to do! Few days back, I searched for my novel to read and I found one of my book during my olden days. My school days. I could not just stop laughing on how silly and stupid I was back then. Immature. drawing here and there. *that habit is still there by the way. How I hated school back then. How I wanna get out of it as soon as possible. It was just funny. Its not the friends was the problem. Neither was the teachers. But it felt like so stressful with so many rules and reputation to maintain. It was just awful! Dramas! Yeah, you tell me about it! Everyone wants attention at the same time. fighting for stupid things. How awful, horrible and fun it was, honestly I missed it! My friends which made me laugh until I crawl and cry, it was a BOOM BOOM BLAST! :) Miss you guys! I really do! Right now I was suppose to feel happy because it's December! YEEAAYY! It's December! I'm happy but not that jumpy happy whooaaww kinda feeling. I'm turning 19 really soon and I can feel I am getting older and older. I want to be young forever! But Obviously you can't. People say being old is beautiful. Is it? :P Well, we'll see about that when I'm 40 and above. I can't wait to turn 19 and discover how it feels like. Where's the excitement of turning 19? I waited so long for this! Maybe I waited so long the excitement is gone with the wind. NO! I's still there and I have to find it! Look for it! DECEMBER EXCITEMENT!*lame nya sigh! And yeah I think I am anti social. BECKAA! *SIGH
My dream is getting weird and weirder and weirderer! I want no more dreams! :(
7 Months being with you is a blast.
7 Months teaches me a lot about love.
7 Months also teaches me about trust.
7 Months is making us stronger.
7 Months had made me the happiest girl on earth.
7 Months teaches me to appreciate what I have.
7 Months teaches me two things that are really important for sure, patience and acceptance.
7 Months had made me wiser and believe in myself that I could do almost anything.
7 Months had also made me realised I am more than myself.
Within this 7 months Syafiq Khairil, I am so grateful that we are together.
Happy 7th Monthlyversary :)
P/S I Love You :)
You're much more worse than I thought. Grow up enjoy life. Learn to be grateful in life. Don't keep on blaming people surround you. It pisses me off.
I'm not fat! I'm just berisi! I don't wanna make this an issue or something. It's not a big deal at all. I don't think that im that fat! like FAT! i'm just berisi. Berisi is something good aite? I just wanna clarify it again that I like the way I am now. I am not fat but I am BERISI. thank you!:)
WOOWW! I have a blog! I forgot that I have a blog!
Okay what happen to me it doesn't matter. I'm fine and good :)
Since I haven't post anything since GOD KNOWS WHEN' I miss writing and expressing my thoughts here. I forgot how happy I was goofing around cracking jokes, telling funny stories which for me I think it's funny but I don't know about you. ! Geezz. Where's my sense of humour? Did I left it somewhere? Maybe because I left blogging for a very very very long time. So, yeah! I'm back! To begin with...
okayy..wait. I don't know where to start.
........................................................... *Ding!
Okay, let's begin with my life.
okay, since I haven't updated anything just yet, lets start with my campus life here in kuantan!
It's now already my third sem in Kuantan which means my final year doing my foundation studies. Crap! This semester I always found myself in misery, hollow, deep, pressured which sometimes I didn't even recognize myself anymore. The classes are fine. So does the schedule but the subjects. GOD!! It's poison! All my subjects needed 'my kinda slow brain' to memorise things. Everytime I studied I have to force my brain to work with me even my heart refused to do so. It's all about Law issues, global issues and also economics. Speaking of economics, I just did the test today. and alhamdulillah I think I can answered all the questions! Bravo biela :) I remembered the last time how I hated economics so much because I didn't know what this crap is all about. After doing some exercises and attending tutor FINALLY I can see the light.*haaaaaaaa ( sound effect). It wasnt that bad after all. :P bajet terer la kan biela! heee :D
Despite of all my not so fabulous life right now, I joined debate and kinda get serious into it. Seriously, Biela debate!! I can debate! haha! Still suck at being the prime minister though! :P anyways and anyhows since we have juniors joining the debate team, we attended DC (director's cup) debate competition in jengka. Basically its just between Kuantan and Jengka. I joined and debate debate debate debate with my partner mimi. We made a great team aite mimi? heee :D we got to the finals and won second place. Im really sorry to qayyum and everyone for breaking the record for not winning this tournament since kuantan never lost to jengka before. I don't know where it went wrong but it's okay experience teached everybody a lesson :)
with my fellow debate members :)
with my best friend Rabieka Aliya and my new adik, izyan :)
Interesting photos isnt it? :P perasan much!:P So much of the joy! Syafiq Khairil Affandi. Yes! He's the guy that I've been missing :( *DING! random..:P How did our relationship flows? We're doing fine, happy like any other loving couples. I let time takes us to whenever he wanna takes us. maybe we're a bit far away from each other right now but time will meet us together someday :) It has been 5 months now and I'm happy. No doubt about it as long as it stays right honey? heee :) syafiq khairil : rightt honey :).. HAHA :D
Many things to do and so I'll try to visit you twice a week my deary blog. I'm not sure when because I'm quite busy lately so I hope you understand. Yeah, I miss u you too. :) XOXO
hey monday! 10th may 2010!I love you so much!and the people who were with me on that day. Thank you sayang :) damn! wish i could turn back time! *sigh. who owns a time machine??
